poetry!!!

i have written 56 poems but i only plan to share my fav poems!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (posting the decent ones first)

poem #50, I swear. Upon my heart, I avow it Never to fall into my weak flesh Never falling into sin again Never looking at a goddess again I will never let this knowledge leave my head These sapphic thoughts are not holy If I let them free, hell is where i'll go and burn for all eternity I know this is wrong, but these ideas do not come to a stop I am broken; this is not how i'm supposed to be I pray until my knees are bruised God, I have betrayed you

poem #49, Hate. This is the life I am destined for I am in a eternal state of perdition This is how the Lord made me I am full of poison How did God make something so terrible? So unsavable Cursed beyond the end of time Wretched in this state of mind From birth I was meant to be despised Unlovable and abominated Nothing more than hate Nothing more than the toxins flowing theough my veins

poem #48, Months wasted. As the month comes to a stop My love does not end Instead it rapidly grows My desire does not close These months, all I do is wait Wait for the warmth that i'll never face So i'll kneel down and worship the ground you walk on You are a divine saint My heart is set on you Even the cosmos envies you You have bewitched me You have destroyed me How many more months will I put to waste?

poem #47, Biophilic. The shine of the sun beckons me The gust wind is calling my name I experience true limerence for the wilderness Every waking moment I yearn for the outside I bestow in the verdant grass As I admire mother nature My heart feels incomplete without her Leaving her is like asking to die I am rooted in the earth and sky I cannot leave even as the twilight lingers All I feel is ecstasy As my tears descend to the rivulet

poem #46, Cynosure. You are the cynosure of my eyes I cannot put into words the hiraeth I feel for you Nevertheless, I will try my best In hopes you will see all the love I carry for you I am decaying during my wait for you Your glance leaves me in a wistful state Full of agony, all because of my love for you You are my muse I often am consumed by my thoughts of you You are in all of the art I create You are both a sonnet and a elegy I will love you even as I bleed

poem #44, Not the same. I still feel your eyes fall upon mine But I no longer feel joy like I once had I know your gaze is not at all positive I know that you are judging me I can see the disgust flowing in your eyes The words of hate that threaten to leave your mouth Is what I see even the truth? Or is it just my cruel imagination? I cannot help but feel this way When things do longer feel the same But the love in my heart grows day by day The love will not go away The beauty of your face has overcome me The beauty of your face is beyond my wildest dreams After you, I will not look at any boy the same They will simply not compare

poem #43, My mom. Everyday, I feel like i'm in hell I don't feel my mother's love I don't feel my mother's care All I feel is her yell I must have done something terrible I must have done something to deserve this hate I wish to enter eternal rest The bugs eating my brain will love me more than her I am walking on eggshells I do not wish to annoy her for much longer Oh mom, what can I do? Maybe if I was never born She could've had the life she truly yearned for

poem #41, You. I know my love is unrequited But that does not stop my yearning I crave your attention Even though we do not speak, nevermore You are ethereal Your voice is mellifluous You are heaven on earth You will be the one to save me from this hell I see you in my dreams You have taken over my brain Every step I take, you are adjacent Still, you stay out of my reach I cannot escape you But you have escaped from me

poem #40, Alien. As I wander through the loud deafening halls I scan the people around me Their demeanor, the way they speak, the way they walk it seems acting human is easier for them than it is for me I am abstruse I am eccentric I am unnatural I am alienated I find it hard to act human, to act normal I often mimick the ones who are loved, accepted No matter what, I am the outsider I feel like a vistor to this world I must be from another planet An alien, who got lost on the way home Now stranded, alone

poem #36, the cage. As I hear the ambient never ending laughter I am held captive in this cage Away from the world, afraid to make any mistake If I do, their agonizing yells will fill my head Then i'll wonder why I didn't just stay inside my cage instead I yearn for the day i'll be accepted I yearn for the day i'll be seen as human But for now i'll just stay here since I despise any kind of change For this cage is all I have ever known

poem #33, eat the rich. I pray one day there will be a war, a war that will end all suffering. When the news channels pop up on the screen, the whole world will see the poor eating all the selfish, rich billionaires who have wronged them. This is the day that makes sure no man will go hungry, for the rich man's flesh cures their starvation.

poem #29, Time The world keeps spinning no matter what goes on Time does not stop for anyone No matter how much I cry or plead Time does not listen to me And soon my time will come to an end And death will become near to me No longer will I have the time to do everything I once loved No longer will I have the time to do the things I dreamed of Why must time be so cruel? Why can't time be fair? I try to convince him that the end must not be here yet But instead time laughs in my face And now my time has ended Death is now here for me All my dreams are shattered Since time has took them away from me

poem #8, Red. I am covered in red This will reach to the end of time This pain is everlasting All of this crimson blood is the evidence I need The evidence to prove that I am unwell.

poem #1, Void. The void in my chest won't ever leave me, no matter how hard I try I have tried falling in love, putting up a happy facade, or watching the blood drip all the way down These solutions do not last forever Will I ever get rid of the void in my heart? Will there ever be a permanent solution?